Thursday, October 28, 2010

It Gets Better: Gay Men's Chorus of Los Angeles "True Colors"

I saw this video being posted on a couple of friend's Facebook walls and I heard it was pretty good, but when I finally got around to watch it really touched me. It ranks right up there with Joel Burn's "It Gets Better" Speech and I have been meaning to put them on here. So here are the boys and the amazing video:

Wednesday, October 27, 2010

Longing and a couple of other random thoughts...

This is probably not healthy, but some days I wish things were back like in the old days, say about 10+ years ago. I think the X used to call it "the age of innocence" when things were much simpler in just about all aspects and all we had to worry was making the house payment, that we had enough food to eat, clothes to wear and that everyone was healthy...,  but then again, that was then and this is now.

Of course people are complex and no one stays the same throughout their lives. Relationships (even husband-wife) evolve and although life can really suck sometimes and hurt like hell, I can't help but feel that I'm in a better place now.

But some days the bug hits, this is probably one of those days...

That's OK, the feeling will go away soon enough, life is funny that way and whips you back into reality faster than I'll hit click to publish this post...but do you ever get that feeling?

*Oh yeah, the random thoughts--gotta have those you know? **
I can't wait for election time to be over, I'm going to vote early on Friday and unfortunately where I live most of my votes will probably not make a difference, still it is the principle of the thing...
I'm quite the cuddle bug--who knew??? can't get enough of it!
This probably needs to be another posting but I love it when the kids tell me they love me before I tell them, just makes my day!!

Wednesday, October 20, 2010

I wish I had something purple to wear...

I dug in my closet and I honestly have nothing purple to wear and didn't have time to go find something at the store so it is going to be symbolic. I also changed my FB profile picture, no fuss or big announcements.

My daughter wrote a piece for her class on bullying which she let me read (she hardly ever lets me do that). It said that she had been bullyied in school previously, broke my heart, but she is a resilient kid and has learned to stand up for herself and I think has started catching the bug that she can also stand out for others who are not able to do it for themselves.

Small things like this can sometimes make the biggest difference.

Sunday, October 17, 2010

Meeting the family...

I don't have a lot of time but just want to give a quick update on last week:

The daughter & son officially met the babe; good conversation, good food and a good time. I'm sure there are still mountains to climb but we've at least started the path...

I met more of his family yesterday & he is meeting a couple more of my family today...

I like the way things are moving and feel like the luckiest man on earth!

Maybe I'll post more later, like when I manage to wipe the stupid grin off my face!! :-)
Publish Post

Monday, October 11, 2010


Sometimes the planets just align...such was the case yesterday.

I had spent the morning with the babe and went to his church with him--(I can handle the 1 hour contemporary service, he, he, he!!). It was nice to start the day with good feelings.

A couple of hours later I picked up the kids and while we were having lunch the topic of the babe came up thanks to my son--maybe he's been working on my daughter--about how he loves to bake desserts and custom cakes and stuff like that; my daughter suddenly turns to me and asks:

So what does he do for a living?
Where does he live?
Does he have pets?
Do you think he'd bake me a cake if I tell him what I want?

etc, etc, etc...

Of course I tried to answer her questions as fast as they were coming. I asked the babe to text me a picture of his dogs and she thought they're cute. I tried to act very casual about the whole thing but inside I was jumping for joy!! Later on I told her:

"Your mom has asked me not to mention anything about this because she said it hurts your feelings--and I certainly don't want you to feel uncomfortable, but I'm wondering if you may be open to meeting "the babe" since my birthday is this week and it would mean the world to me to have all 3 of you in the same place, I don't care about presents or anything, I just want you and him to meet. I think you've figured out by now that he is not going anywhere and it seems like a good time go make this happen"

I saw a twinge of stress in her forehead and then she replied:

"Yes, I'd be open to meeting him"

I asked her: "Are you nervious?"

She said she wasn't, at which point I think I probably took a deep breath and again, tried to act very casual about it but spent the rest of the day with a huge grin on my face. To many people this may not be a huge thing (or maybe even a good thing--haven't had a chance to talk to the ex and see what she thinks, but honestly I don't care!!) but this is something that I've been hoping and praying that might happen for a while.

So Thursday is the day. I've played this situation in my mind so many times and I'm sure how I envision it will have nothing to do with reality but progress is progress in any type/shape/form and that my friends, is a very good thing to happen in my life!! I'm not a big believer in numerology, the essence of how 10-10-10 and other numerical sequences moves/shakes and changes the world, but at least yesterday for me perhaps was just a ping of good luck that might make me a believer, no?


Monday, October 4, 2010

Thanks for the Broken bridge BKP :-(

The saddest thing: All the work that many of the Mohos all around, straight allies, and many local and semi-GA LDS leaders have put into bridging the gap between the LDS church and the gay community was completely broken by a simple remark by the Darth Vader of all general authorities, the man who if Thomas S. Monson were to drop dead today would be the next prophet of the Mormon Church.

Way to go alienating people; Im sure that's exactly WHAT WOULD JESUS DO!!!!!

All I can think at this time is the poor Deacon, Priest, Missionary and/or the young woman whose entire hopes for understanding and a little bit of love have completely dashed. I can think of all the parents and relatives who will approach us homos and say: "I love you, but President Packer says..." Forget the compassion, understanding and a glimpse of unconditional love in the name of "The Brethren Have Spoken". 

What a sad, sad, sad day for the Mormon church...